Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Club Kids

circa 1992

 

Future Mrs. S and I were living on one floor of a Wicker Park rowhouse down the street from the Opus Dei church:
Opus Dei Church

A couple of blocks away, there was a bar called the Artful Dodger:

Artful Dodger

There was a bar in the front room and a dance floor in the back. The well drinks from the bar came with glow sticks in them.

Aqua Velva

and the back room had black lights and trippy graffitti on the walls. Usually something like this was playing:


The Artful Dodger stayed open until 2. If you weren't ready to go home yet (remember the glow sticks?) you could walk up to Blue Note on Armitage, which was a super smoky basement bar that stayed open until 4. The jukebox was good, filled with Blue Note jazz records as well as classic Chicago blues:


If you still weren't ready to go home (some of those *glow sticks* lasted longer than others) you could walk across the Cortland bridge

Chicago from Cortland St bridge

past the Finkl factory

A Finkl & Sons Steel

and over to Old Town, where you could get a greasy breakfast at Nookie's Diner.

Nookies

I had a friend who lived in a coach house/studio above a garage in Old Town. She tended bar and kept strange hours but she was usually good for some French press coffee, a couple of bowls and some chill music:


Then on Monday morning, load up the Walkman with appropriate tapes for the ride in to work:



Good times, back in the day.

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Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Just One More (For The End Of The Road)

The ring of success
Remains highly elusive
You find happiness
In the daily quotidian
Forget all the diamonds
Mine for obsidian
The resort of your life
Is not that exclusive

Tierra del Fuego
Is the ends of the earth
Where the mountains collapse
Into archipelago
Our guide is Chilean
The storm Argentinian
And none of us know
What any of this is worth

So pour me another
And make it a double
Pour me one more
For the end of the road

We did take the acid
And yes it was brown
Just like the music
In the quickening mud
Just like the swan dive
And the sickening thud
The car's in the ditch
Shall we hitch
Back to town?

So pour me another
And make it a double
Pour me one more
For the end of the road

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

Double A Blues

My shoulder is in shreds
My elbow is hanging by a thread
But you don't need a slurve
To live a suburban life

It got me some girls
And put me through school
And showed me which diners
Are open all night

And you still love the game
But the game don't love you back
So they put you off the bus
And you have to find another track

I keep working out
Cause it's just what you do
And I keep going to rehab
While the insurance comes through

I know what it's like
To be the king of the hill
To be a man amoung boys
To give a giant crowd thrills

But now I'm just a guy
With a bad arm
And a pile
Of bills

Thursday, May 02, 2013

In A Nutshell

Thank you.
I’m sorry.
Please?
You’re welcome.

:)

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Scott, Bob, Leo, Jay-Z and Me

The feeling
Of being
Fourteen
And reading
The Great Gatsby
For the very
First time.
Is concrete
Yet ineffable
Present
Yet unattainable
Like the green light
At the end
Of that Long Island
Dock.

I'm craggy
And weathered
Just like
Robert Redford
With a bittersweet
Nostalgia
For an earlier
Time.
It's concrete
Yet ineffable
Present
Yet unattainable
Like the green light
At the end
Of that Long Island
Dock.

We were all
Young once
But only
That once
And yes
It was terrible
But I do
Miss it so.
Concrete
Yet ineffable
Present
Yet unattainable
Like the green light
At the end
Of that Long Island
Dock.

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Balaji

So you left
And life went on
Except for the plants
Which died
Due to lack of water
And the loss
Of your sunny personality

Tuesday, April 09, 2013

Broken/Crack

He was kind of eccentric
But he smoked weed
And stayed up late into the night

He was kind of dyslexic
But he'd bless himself
To tell his left hand from his right

He taped the Russian broadcasts
From Cuba
Turned that Morse code into sound

He got married to a woman
Then she went crazy
Might have been the other way around

When you feel like you are broken
Things around you tend to crack
Yeah when you feel like you are broken
Things around you, they tend to crack

His wife she was a poet and a painter
You'd see her dancing down the street
Wearing out her toe shoes on the sidewalk
Dancing up and down the street

And you knew that she was crazy
But I knew her from way back when she was fun

When you feel like you are broken
Things around you tend to crack
Yeah when you feel like you are broken
Things around you, they tend to crack

Friday, March 22, 2013

First Day of Spring

I like the slinky mystery
Of your silky nylon tights
I like the way you look around
At the traffic light

I like the curve down from your back
That snakes over your hips
I like that glossy hint of cherry
Peeking off your lips

I know I've got the fever
You know you've got it too
Spring has sprung, let's get to work
There's things we gotta do

I like that slit down in your skirt
That button on your blouse
I like the wobble in your walk
On heels inside the house

And the kids say eeew
Poke me in the eye
They say eeew
Please just let me die
They say eeew
But it's the first day of spring
So yeah, I gotta sing
Even if it's TMI

I know I've got the fever
You know you've got it too
Spring has sprung, let's get to work
There's things we gotta do

And the kids say eeew
Poke me in the eye
They say eeew
Please just let me die
They say eeew
But it's the first day of spring
So yeah, I gotta sing
Even if it's TMI

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Shell Game


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crap
quit

Monday, February 25, 2013

An Orange Julius on the way to Judy Gap

An Orange Julius on the way to Judy Gap
Dad was chewing gum and driving
Mom was looking at the map
The river was off to our left
The mountain to our right
As we drove that lonesome valley road
In the West Virginia night

My brother was in the back with me
He had a flashlight and a book
And I so dearly wanted to be him
And have him give me that look
But instead I stared out the back of the car
At a West Virginia night
And a sky full of stars

A couple of summers, a couple of winters
We would go a few weeks at a time
Mom always made a happy noise
At the Pocahontas County sign
The snow was deep, and would pile in drifts
That went above my thigh

Dad called it the cabin but Mom called it the farm
I don't know why; all it grew was rock
We had river rock and mountain rock
Every kind you could desire
An apple orchard and a swimming hole
And a tree hung with a tire

Dad took us on a day trip
To see the telescope
Everyone listened to what he said
People laughed at all of his jokes
We had lunch in the break room
There was no Dairy Queen
But it was good to be with Dad
And we got to eat ice cream

I don't really remember just how it went down
Dad got more distant
Mom spent her nights in town
I might have been out playing
I might have been taking a nap
But I'll always remember the Orange Julius
On the way to Judy Gap

Monday, January 28, 2013

Hey Stephen


Don't stay cooped up in the house
Get outside once a day
It's ok to talk to strangers
But don't trust what they say
And if you're not comfortable
If your mind is going astray
Ask the little voice inside
Is this really insane?

And if it is, that's ok
Just say you have to go
Walk, don't run, and call my cell
When you get back home.
You've made lots of progress
I'm really proud of you
Take your meds and trust your friends
We're here to help you through.

Argh, here it comes again
I don't like the way this feels
Here it comes again
Here it comes
Here it comes

Why did you say that?
That's just insane.
Why did you do that?
That's just insane.
Why did you think that?
I'm going insane.

If you are, that's ok
Just say you have to go
Walk, don't run, and call my cell
When you get back home.
You've made lots of progress
I'm really proud of you
Take your meds and trust your friends
We're here to help you through.

Saturday, December 29, 2012

On Listening To Nine Inch Nails

Angst is just awkward, an anxious state
A misplaced foot and Germanic A
Full of fear and trembling and emotions displaced
A Mitteleuropa mark from a time and a place

Aloha is Hawaiian and thus hard to say
Too many vowels, they get in your way
You need a uke or a slack key guitar
The far northern tropics is where you are

A drone doesn't work if it's strictly alone
It must be detuned with a beat in its own
Overtones and modes and the root which is home
It's a solid yet fragile harmonic zone

Distortion distortion piled on top
Bitcrushed or boogex or amps that won't stop
Communist industry, factory grind
The whine of a saw on the grate of your mind

I feel angst
War between the classes
I feel angst
Wanna fuck my mother
I feel angst
I lost my archetype
But underneath it all you know
You can't believe the hype

The fruits of his labor
Are taken from the worker
The profit and the ease
Are taken by another
The specter in my dreams
Looks just like my father
The power of the message
Makes you just like any other 

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Mountain

V1
I was born a strong mountain
Time has been a strong rain
I'm still standing but if I fell down
I couldn't get up here again

V2
Hacked with picks and drilled with mines
They suck on my blood like wine
Seasons turn while the west wind blows
I've grown so incredibly old

C1
I'm the man in the mountain, baby
It's the job I was born to do
Atlas never knew why he was there
But for me, I do it for you

V3
Shoulders slumped on a back that's cracked
A rock slide paralyzed my face
Each year a little more comes off the top
Crags crumble and fall out of place

V4
Down below I see the fertile plain
Where you plant and harvest your grain
I did that, I built it, I made it for you
Because that is the job I was born to do

C2
I'm the man in the mountain, baby
It's the job I was born to do
Atlas never knew why he was there
But for me, I do it for you

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Sexy Time



V1
The dishwasher hums
Shoes tidied away
Watched the Daily Show
Talked about our day
Second glass of wine
Love seat just for two
Feeling warm and cozy
Some things I wanna do

PC1
I wanna touch your edges
I wanna go in deep
I'm feeling like it's sexy time
But now you're fast asleep

C1
Sexy time
(wanna do it in our)
Sexy time
(wanna be up in your)
Sexy time
But the hours in the day
Somehow manage to just slip away

V2
The house is dark and quiet
The birds begin to sing
Dawn reaches the window
Not worried about a thing
I'm lying in our bed
Alarm an hour away
Feeling warm and cozy
I'm all ready to play

PC2
Come on and touch my edges
I wanna feel you deep
I'm feeling like it's sexy time
But now you're fast asleep

C2
Sexy time
(wanna do it in our)
Sexy time
(wanna be up in your)
Sexy time
But the hours in the day
Somehow manage to just slip away

B
Kids and jobs and daily life
Family gripes and workplace strife
Everything balanced on the edge of a knife
But you're still my husband and I am still your wife
(so we'll have)

C3
Sexy time
(I don't know when but it's still)
Sexy time
(I love to feel you in our)
Sexy time
We'll just slip away
And find another hour in the day

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

John Ashbery

We're meeting uptown in the New York Public Library
Hanging in the city with my bud, John Ashbery
Inside the daily details he's saying something really deep
You gotta brush your teeth and you always gotta get your sleep
We'll speak in French translation and we'll tour the artist's gallery
Hanging in the city with my bud, John Ashbery

It's a list
With a twist
Which will be quite amusingly witty
Oh what bliss
(Oh my lisp)
But you look so unbearably pretty
It's cocktails and showgirls and glam evening wear
A night out in Manhattan with nary a care
When I enter the party everyone will stare
But inside I'm incredibly lonely 

The cocktail jazz furnishings of the living room
Are unsuited to our urban/R&B lifestyle.
The invitations keep piling up
Although I'm not sure if I am too interested
In sharing time that way. Can't I just
Acquire my own greedy pile
To spend however I wish?
I've known John for years
We went to school together
But recently he's been getting
Rather dog eared. A little floppy
Not perking up whenever I walk into a room
Wearing one of my fancy Nantucket sweaters
Like I did on the Cape when we first met

Monday, October 01, 2012

Three Phone Calls

Hey
How you doing today?
You ok?
Still in some pain?
Call the nurse?
She came right away.
How long do I have to stay?
They're running tests
They're doing their best
Should try and get some rest
Ok?
Ok.

Hey
You see her today?
Doc?
What did he say?
Can't she come home
How long must she stay.
They're running tests
They're doing their best
Should try and get some rest
Ok?
Ok

Hey
Saturday?
I can't
There's just no way
Might drive Columbus Day
Till then I can't say
I don't know why they have to keep running these tests
We just have to keep hoping, hope for the best
I know, I should go get some rest
I'll call you tomorrow, ok?
Ok

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

68th and Chappel, 1989 - Part 2

Anyway, one day the alley got a real hoop. I don’t know how it happened, but one day there it was, up about ten feet with a net and a backboard and the kids playing with a real ball. I watched them play, shooting from the chest and diving in piles after rebounds, hot dogging and hot dogging, shake and bake and the hustle, winner gets the ball again.

There were two kids sitting on the ground, watching the game. The girl was about two, sitting on her butt in the dirt, her hands covered with dust and her pink dress pathetically dirty. The boy was about six, and seemed to be the one in charge. “Come on Neri, don’t be eatin that dirt, you know momma gonna be mad”. But Neri’s mouth was a clownface brown and she was wearing the huge smile of a kid who knows she’s gotten away with something she shouldn’t have.

I’d gotten some peaches the day before, and I was eating one as I was talking to John. He asked me what I was eating, and I told him it was a peach, and he asked if he could have one too. He was amazed by the peach, the juice ran down his face and he couldn’t reach his tongue far enough to get it all. “This peach is good. I want to have a peach every day”.

It was almost dark, most of the kids had been called back inside, to eat and wait for the lurking hours. I asked John my he wasn’t playing with the other boys. “I got to mind Neri. That’s what my momma told me, so I got to mind her.” One of the previous tenants had left a basketball in the apartment. It was kind of flat, and you really had to pound it to dribble, but I went up and brought it outside.
“Come on, let’s play some hoops.”

He wasn’t very coordinated, but I showed him how to shoot the ball so it would get some backspin, and how to do a layup. He would do his thing and I brought the ball back to him, sometimes trying a really goofy shot that would make John laugh. And the weird thing was that those shots just kept going in, like when you are in the zone and you just can’t miss.

“You know, I met Michael Jordan once”
“For real?”
“Yeah. You know he doesn’t do drugs, or run with a gang, or anything like that.”
”Yeah?”
“Yeah. And he told me, when he was young, he always minded his momma. He wasn’t tall either, when he was growing up. He was short, and skinny, and nobody would let him play in the basketball games. But he kept practicing, and practicing, and then, when he finally started growing, he just kicked butt on all the people who used to think they were so much better than he was.”

John was silent, and looked for Neri, to make sure she wasn’t doing anything. She was still sitting on the ground, taking dirt and throwing it up in the air. Then he turned back, with a kind of suspicious look, and said “Did you ever see Michael dunk?” The look on his face seemed to say that this was the testing point, that somehow, everything I had said was contingent on this answer.

I’d never been able to dunk before, always hitting the rim or having the ball slide out of my hand, but I said
“Sure. Let me show you how Michael slammed on me. I was going with him, not giving him any room, like this”
I took up a defensive stand, and moved around a little
“But Michael, he was like this”
I turned around, and started dribbling, sticking my tongue way out.
“And all of a sudden he is by me”
I pushed the ball hard into my right hand, trying desperately to keep my fingers from slipping from the palm grip they had on the ball.
“And he went up”

I started to run, four steps, and on the fourth step I planted my left foot and prayed, and jumped as hard and as high as I could, hoping against hope that somehow, that little bit of magic that had made all my jumpers go in and the dribbles never go off my shoes would give me this final piece of credibility, that little extra to make me, instead of the Brothers of the Folks, a temporary hero.

I went up, I pushed every part of my body, stretching it as far as it would go. The ball didn’t slip out, and just as I felt myself at the top of my leap, that magic moment where there’s no gravity and no sound, I threw the ball down and slammed my hand onto the rim, holding on for dear life and to miss the telephone pole.

The ball flew through the net, bounced, went up about five feet, and came down. John caught it and brought it back to me. “Wow, Michael Jordan”.

68th and Chappel, 1989 - Part 1

There was an alley behind my apartment where all the kids of the neighborhood hung out, it being the middle of summer vacation from the brown ridiculous schoolyards and absurd yellow buses. Streetside daycare was the way of the neighborhood, single parents sleeping off their dead end jobs and getting the kids out of the bedroom, “Don’t make so much noise, momma’s got to sleep, go outside, there’s a package of hot dogs in the refrigerator and I’ll bring you over to your auntie’s tonight”.

The kids who had parents on the day shift, or even two of the them, would go to the windows, opening them up to the air, no one on the South Side has air conditioning, watching the games in the alley and yelling down to their friends the latest alley gossip, hanging out of the window until an unseen voice would yell from the kitchen, “SilkieRaquel, you come in here right now, I don’t want you hanging out that window no more. Come on!”.

Little girls in pigtails and bright summer skirts would double dutch, and a crowd of waiters and hangers on would watch, waiting their turn and secretly hoping she messed up soon. Two mothers out on a back porch, drinking coffee and smoking Newports saying “Shit girl, when I was young I could do that all day long, jumping and double dutching, now I get tired just going up the stairs” “Oh I hear you sister”.

The younger boys would play some game whose rules were always amorphous but seemed to consist of running around screaming and pointing phallic objects at each other, with plenty of dramatic death-throes. The older boys would play stickball in the abandoned lot until they lost the tennis ball or broke the broom handle down so that they couldn’t use it any more, then they would stand around and mutter and throw stones and eventually disperse and then the younger boys would sneak in and collect the pieces to integrate them into their own new game. “Pow – you’re dead.”

The older boys would sit around and watch, in their slick Converse sweatsuits, the price tags still hanging on them, baseball hats broke left or right, Brothers or Folks, this was Terror Town. Sometimes, a legendary homeboy of the neighborhood would come by, in a Cadillac or just walking, a lot of gold but basically the same uniform without price tags, back to catch up on things or a cousin; “You seen Christmas? He stay with his auntie, you know, Chuck Christmas, he hoops over Stony Island.”

If those were the heroes, the God was Luster. Luster had a garden apartment in one of the buildings on the front of the alley. I think he was supposed to be a janitor or caretaker, but I never saw him do anything , just sit there on the moldy couch in that garden apartment in his undershirt watching tv with a big floor fan going, smoking Kools and leaving them, still burning, the heaped ashtray that I never saw empty.

To the kids he sold icycups, the summer treat of choice in the neighborhood, twenty five cents for a Styrofoam cup filled with frozen Kool-Aid and a stick stuck in it. He also sold Milky Ways and Almond Joys for thirty cents; he bought them by the case and undersold the drugstores. The kids would pester their mother or sibling in charge for a quarter “Wanna get an icycup”, or they would look in the already scoured lot for the small change, chump change that the Brothers and Folks so despised, tossing it away in imitation of their idols, the Rangers, who never carried around anything smaller than a fifty.

As soon as the kids got the money inside their tiny, clenched, fists, they would run all the way down to Luster’s. One of the little girls, she loved money the way cats love catnip, screaming “Money money money, I love money”, kissing it and rubbing it on her skin, squealing in ecstasy “money money money I goin get me an icycup an icycup and a Snickers, no I get me an Almond Joy an Almond Joy and an icycup”.

To the older kids Luster sold dust and buds and wicket, the marijuana coming in little manila envelopes that came from the post office stamp machine, dime or nickel bags, sometimes dust would wind up with the buds, hear kids screaming in the middle of the night “the bugs the bugs I got the bugs”. Luster’s apartment was truce territory between Brothers and Folks, they would just look at each other, with their arms crossed just like Chuck D.

For everyone else, Luster sold crack and horse, still never getting up from that moldy couch. Some of the younger brother dealt the shit down at the basketball courts, and after eight when the games broke up the park would be filled with kids shooting up or lighting the wick of a crack pipe. The cops never went down to the park, don’t fuck with the niggers on their own turf, just keep your head down and do your job, the cycle of shit made real every day

Friday, September 21, 2012

Lookin For Love

V1
(She signed up)
At the gym
Working off all of those middle aged pounds
She noticed him
One of those guys who was always around
They'd both dipped in to
Retirement accounts
She did her tits
He bought a Porche 944

C1
Yeah this is dating
In your prime
You're forty and you're free
Aren't you having a good time?

V2
At the restaurant
Very careful about what they eat
Lactose intolerant
He tells her that he just can't do the wheat
They share some friends
Both had taken the same cooking class
He paid the check
She wonders if he really likes her ass

C2
Yeah this is dating
In your prime
You're forty and you're free
Aren't you having a good time?

B
She's looking for love
In a push up bra
He's driving around
In a new sports car
He's looking for love
In her push up bra
She's riding around
In his new sports car

V3
Small apartment
With a double bunk bed for his kids
She's got an ex
But forgets exactly where he lives
It's not ideal
She checks for texts on her cute smartphone
But here's the deal
Sometimes you just don't want to be alone

C3
Yeah this is dating
In your prime
You're forty and you're free
Aren't you having a good time?

C4
Yeah this is dating
In your prime
You're forty and you're free
Aren't you having .....
A good time?

Equinox

In the morning chill of approaching fall
The roses send out their second bloom
Absent the heat of the long dry summer
The lawn returns to a lush hopeful green
I'm waiting for life to finally slow down
So I can figure out what this all means

It's spring in Australia but here it is autumn
And I pass by an old Brit along the canal
He's thinking of leaving for the open road
My car remains parked in its regular spot
I'm waiting for life to finally slow down
So I can remember all the things I forgot

On the banks of the river Suzanne waits for me
Her table pre-set with oranges and tea
But I'm drawn every morning to the dusty tow path
Where I crunch on the gravel and admire the trees
Attached to my barge until evening's quick black
I'm waiting for life to finally slow down
So I can figure how I can make my way back.